Saturday, 02 October 2010

  • Is everything okay?

    Maybe you'll tell me i'm just thinking too much or over analysing but i can't help feel that we have been snapping at each other a lot these days. Is it the stress of everything that has happened? Or are we both really just 'exhausted'... Maybe we need more space? I don't know... Truth hurts. 

    Yesterday night before you were going to leave or actually maybe the whole night we hardly touched [mentally and physically]. It just seemed like even though we were standing right next to each other... I couldn't feel you. When we held hands for that short moment it felt 'empty'... Are these things limited? Did time run out? Or do you have something you want to say?

    Mmm anyways, i'm not scared... I guess i believe everything happens for a reason.. Whatever happens, happens. 

    I loved you and i still do. I just hope you still do.. I'm just not sure where all this is going... I suppose sometimes you can't always know!

    No relationship is truly perfect. Especially when you talk yourself into thinking it is.

     

Tuesday, 16 March 2010

Thursday, 10 December 2009

  • dear "x"

    i find it so hard to trust you anymore and i wish it didn't have to come to this but sometimes i feel like i don't want anything to do with you. this is extremely hard because i still love you very much. and i can deny to the core our relationship but i can never run away from it. you will always have a place in my heart... but just to let you know... it will just be an insignificant part until you earn my trust back... whether or not having my trust is important is your choice. you make excuses and more excuses... please, no more. it's either the truth or nothing. i would be much happier if you didn't make so many promises, only to in the end not go through with them. i would rather you be honest with me. i'm not forcing you to do anything. i just ask of you to think about it. i know you are capable of being a great person... and you keep pushing us away in search of something. but honestly... are you happy at the moment? without happiness... getting what you want never feels good. don't think for a second i'm cruising through life all easy and breezy. think again. i'm exhausted waiting.

    love always... just finding it hard at the moment to.

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    this is weird for me, but i am extremely against going out with anyone at the moment. blame it on the past? hahaha. i guess i'm just happy where i am now. i donno... that was kind of random!

    hope you guys all had a great day.

    p.s i saw some greeeeat clothing items. HE-LLO summer :)

    alltheseasons x

Saturday, 05 December 2009

  • Just the other girl.

    Rachel, Quinn, Finn - glee photo

    you know. when the guy you like is in love with some other girl but comes to you for comfort or in other cases... for a screw (or atleast expects it to happen..) have you been this other girl? i, sadly have fallen victim to this. i don' t know if this makes it worse but he was my ex. we stopped talking after a while when he went out with 2 of my friends and some other girl who he went out with just to get over the fact he was whipped (that's pretty low don't you think?) anyways... he sent me a message one day asking if i wanted to go over to his and stupidly (is that even a word?) i agreed. stupid naive me... i honestly believed it was just going to be a simple day at his, chilling out and watching a movie because a bit before he sent this message we were just talking like friends - didn't occur to me he would think of anything more. plus, i have really good guy friends and we chill and it's never more. so, anyways, silly me went over to his place and he made a move on me... he put his arm around my waist... what confused me more was... why didn't i immediately brush his arm off me? why did i let it keep going? i mean, i was single and he was single... but i knew what he was like! and when he kissed me it struck me. i don't want to be that other girl - at the time he still had feelings for his ex. i don't want to have to be the 'secret'. so, i left. but, we talk normally now and since then he has hit on my other friend too - which he probably thought no one would find out about - and is now going out with some other girl... HA.

    p.s i never kissed him back... and thank goodness for that haha.

    what do you feel about being the other girl? have you ever been one? would you mind it?

    alltheseasons x

Friday, 04 December 2009

  • why can't we be friends?

    why can't guys and girls be friends without things progressing to the level up from best friends? and no... not super best friends - boyfriend and girlfriend! but i guess, typically it would go down like this: they like eachother then realize that it won't work and it gets incredibly awkward and they can't look at eachother again. i mean, it has never happened exactly like that for me but i remember in 7th grade i kind of started to like this guy who i considered as a really good guy friend of mine. then some idiot chimed in and started saying things like omg you know he likes you, she likes you blah blah blah and that was when it went kind of awkward. i guess we both knew if we ever dated or went out it wouldn't be so great... you can guess the story from then on. ANYWAYS, the point is, is it really that impossible for a guy and girl to be purely good friends?

    well, in my opinion it is definitely not impossible. but you usually realize that you both can be bestfriends AFTER the whole i like you, let's date and then it fails (not all the time). i have a few really close guy friends actually. it's good because i find that i can talk to them about anything like when i talk to my girlfriends but i can get another view. guys can be simple minded (prove me wrong, i dare you) but it doesn't bother me. i think it makes me more relaxed actually... i mean, being a girl i know that when girls get togther it's... inevitable gossiping... i mean, certain people gossip more than others but some gossip always gets in the conversation LOL. but me and my friends don't gossip a lot actually.

    so, do you have a guy bestfriend? or did you? what happened? or did your transition from bestfriend to lovers work? :)

    alltheseasons x

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