Maybe you'll tell me i'm just thinking too much or over analysing but i can't help feel that we have been snapping at each other a lot these days. Is it the stress of everything that has happened? Or are we both really just 'exhausted'... Maybe we need more space? I don't know... Truth hurts. 

Yesterday night before you were going to leave or actually maybe the whole night we hardly touched [mentally and physically]. It just seemed like even though we were standing right next to each other... I couldn't feel you. When we held hands for that short moment it felt 'empty'... Are these things limited? Did time run out? Or do you have something you want to say?

Mmm anyways, i'm not scared... I guess i believe everything happens for a reason.. Whatever happens, happens. 

I loved you and i still do. I just hope you still do.. I'm just not sure where all this is going... I suppose sometimes you can't always know!

No relationship is truly perfect. Especially when you talk yourself into thinking it is.

i find it so hard to trust you anymore and i wish it didn't have to come to this but sometimes i feel like i don't want anything to do with you. this is extremely hard because i still love you very much. and i can deny to the core our relationship but i can never run away from it. you will always have a place in my heart... but just to let you know... it will just be an insignificant part until you earn my trust back... whether or not having my trust is important is your choice. you make excuses and more excuses... please, no more. it's either the truth or nothing. i would be much happier if you didn't make so many promises, only to in the end not go through with them. i would rather you be honest with me. i'm not forcing you to do anything. i just ask of you to think about it. i know you are capable of being a great person... and you keep pushing us away in search of something. but honestly... are you happy at the moment? without happiness... getting what you want never feels good. don't think for a second i'm cruising through life all easy and breezy. think again. i'm exhausted waiting.

love always... just finding it hard at the moment to.

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this is weird for me, but i am extremely against going out with anyone at the moment. blame it on the past? hahaha. i guess i'm just happy where i am now. i donno... that was kind of random!

hope you guys all had a great day.

p.s i saw some greeeeat clothing items. HE-LLO summer :)

alltheseasons x

why can't guys and girls be friends without things progressing to the level up from best friends? and no... not super best friends - boyfriend and girlfriend! but i guess, typically it would go down like this: they like eachother then realize that it won't work and it gets incredibly awkward and they can't look at eachother again. i mean, it has never happened exactly like that for me but i remember in 7th grade i kind of started to like this guy who i considered as a really good guy friend of mine. then some idiot chimed in and started saying things like omg you know he likes you, she likes you blah blah blah and that was when it went kind of awkward. i guess we both knew if we ever dated or went out it wouldn't be so great... you can guess the story from then on. ANYWAYS, the point is, is it really that impossible for a guy and girl to be purely good friends?

well, in my opinion it is definitely not impossible. but you usually realize that you both can be bestfriends AFTER the whole i like you, let's date and then it fails (not all the time). i have a few really close guy friends actually. it's good because i find that i can talk to them about anything like when i talk to my girlfriends but i can get another view. guys can be simple minded (prove me wrong, i dare you) but it doesn't bother me. i think it makes me more relaxed actually... i mean, being a girl i know that when girls get togther it's... inevitable gossiping... i mean, certain people gossip more than others but some gossip always gets in the conversation LOL. but me and my friends don't gossip a lot actually.

so, do you have a guy bestfriend? or did you? what happened? or did your transition from bestfriend to lovers work? :)

alltheseasons x